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Monday, April 17, 2006

man oh man oh man oh man.

i have the worst bellyache ever. but seriously.

well, i had the best idea for a blog last night at about 2 am. it worries me that i am thinking about it even while i sleep. but i woke up with this brilliant idea, and was either extremely excited about it, or freezing from the open window, cause i didn't go back to sleep for an hour.

either way, i finally sat down at the computer(presently) and cannot seem to remember what the great idea was. this is one of those moments my sister gen and i used to call a "yogi bear". one night we were sitting up for three hours on trying to remember that dang bear's name, and once we realized it was yogi, we decided that was how we were going to refer to those times where you go up and down crossways crazy cause you can't remember what something is called. the tip of your tongue.

i spend a lot of time beating around the bush. in life, on the blog, in general. i'm the most blunt person you'd ever meet, but still afraid of being open. this only happened recently, i used to have 0 secrets. i believe this is a result of trying really hard to be funny, educated, and pretty. and to be honest, i truly don't care if i'm any of these. i've come to believe i do it subconsciously for entertainment. i go to sleep at night and laugh at myself for being such an idiot. it's almost fun. almost.

this was a confessional. this all started yesterday with my family getting a glance of the hickie on my neck i'd been trying to hide for two days. i think i was more angry that i had put such effort into hiding it when they found out than the fact that they had actually seen it. anyways, i'm realizing that its way more fun to be the dirty growing-up/not growing-up fool i am, than an awkward pretty girl with a crass sense of humor. the second goes over well. i don't think i'm ready for that.


At 11:14 AM, Blogger Greedy Kristian said...

Good. It's better to be a dirty grown-up and honest. Then a liaring fool.

At 12:13 PM, Blogger Kylie said...



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